Anxiety Attacks!

Life is in constant motion and if you want to stay in good mental health, you’ll stay in constant motion too.

What does it mean to stay in motion? I’m referring to the ability to constantly refresh the things one does. By refreshing and putting new (original) effort into each day, a person can fight off laziness and drop off the mental agony of restlessness. It seems sometimes like restlessness can build up energy to be exerted in our ambitions and activities, but ideally we keep ourselves moving in order to keep restlessness from overcoming us and creating great emotional misery. Energy coming from developed restlessness or anxiety tends to be a bit unbalanced and misplaced.

Following those impulses makes them more likely to keep appearing, and also influences one to keep doing things that make their neuroses stronger. Many times one thinks that following their impulses will satiate them and thus solve the problem for the moment. In that sense they are like sexual impulses. They are always strong, but each time they are followed they become easier to follow and the rest of the mind or will becomes correspondingly weaker as a result.

Everyone has their own definition of what it means to be productive. But some kinds of productivity rely on outside partnerships and influences to be fulfilled. I mean, if productivity in one’s life is merely being defined by social, material or financial gains, that productivity is limited and unstable. It is not a dependable source of personal satisfaction. By learning to leave behind anxiety, stress and restlessness, one learns to balance one’s life and intimately penetrate the concept of change. Change is interesting because ultimately nothing is changing when one is maintaining a sense of balance. One will appear differently throughout each “form”, but the root is always the same.

So one needs to be constantly “productive” or to be doing things that are fulfilling, however these fulfilling activities must periodically change in order to stay fresh and effective, and they must be activities that need not rely on other people — and also do not directly interfere with the lives (and desires) of others.

This is also part of the ability to see through illusions – constantly changing one’s habits and daily actions. Sometimes it is important to do the same thing every day, the same kind of practice. But at the same time, if these practices are not challenged or changed from time to time, they can become stale. And stale practices are a waste of time. A stale practice, like idle time and interactions, is like mold. It leads to nothing except self-indulgences and foolishness.

It is true that we sometimes like to rely on people for a dependable pattern (i.e. artists). However, it is important to keep changing or else one becomes something of a technician – one who is following a formula. For an unchanging person, the formula has become their life. A great artist is constantly reinventing themselves. Their source is always the same, but they always find new ways to surprise others and also create works which do not quickly betray their deepest integrity. But their change is also a result of evasion from the demon of despair, which arises as soon as one ceases to change. Then anxiety swells and one falls into an unbalanced indulgence of self. The external appearance of change is observed empirically by the world, but internally the changing artist is in most perfect balance with the world. But these people are rare and the world often mistakes who is of this caliber. It is almost impossible to categorize such people.

Those who are ahead of their time are forced because they intimately abide by a divine law of change which has shaped their life. All follow this law, but it is only intimately known by those who feel compelled to reinvention again and again and so become at ease within change. This is how the transmigration of life and death can be understood – by the mastery of infinite change and having the compulsion to do so.


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